Hello my name is Stevie Jackson and today, I don’t really have shit to say…
*insert audience pre-recorded track (all of my own voice for special effect)* “WHATTTTTTTT”
Now, now, hear me out. I may not have “shit” to say. However, I instead would like to do a special blog where I tell you a little story. Now, don’t you fret (because a writer would only hope their audience audibly gasps to the thought of their original works being slightly askew). I still promise you a sarcastically worded and semi- inspirational message to come out of this.
So, without further ado…
*drum roll (but really it’s just me playing the bongos- again for special effect)*
Sit back, relax, grab that much deserved glass of wine, and enjoy!
Set the scene- a school.
A kindergarten teacher asks her student what she would like to be when she grows up. She replies “I’m going to be an actress! OH, and I am going to be a professional pizza taster! OH AND, I am going to be a princess.”
*flash forward 5 years*
A 5th grade teacher asks her student what she would like to be when she grows up. She replies “Um probably a high risk pregnancy doctor? Mainly because I’m good with kids. Oh, and I kind of like Science. The whole medical part will take some getting used to… but I think I might like it. I heard they make a lot of money too. So yeah, I’ll do that. And I probably will also run an interior decorating business on the side, in my free time. I really like decorating stuff so I think those two jobs will work perfect together for me”.
*flash forward 4 years*
set the scene- some other school.
A 9th grade teacher asks her student what she would like to be when she grows up. She replies “Well, I do have 100 in my bio class and it comes really naturally to me so I think a biology teacher is my best bet. I am pretty shy so hopefully the whole teaching aspect of that will come with proper training and what not. But wait… actually, now that I think about it, on the other hand, maybe a wedding planner? I love that movie and her job looks cool.”
*flash forward 3 years*
A 12th grade teacher asks her soon to be high school graduate what she would like to go to college for. “Well over the summer, I thought about it. I really like chorus a lot, so probably a chorus teacher. I am not too good at the piano though, so that might be a problem. But I do really like to sing and I can’t really do anything else with that, can I? But I also like to write, I could write children’s books maybe. Just on my own time.”
*flash forward 4 years*
A student walks across the stage at her college graduation and is handed a diploma for receiving her BFA in musical Theatre.
SURPRISE!!! What I just talked you through was the very shortened journey of me, Stevie Jackson, trying to decide “what I wanted to be when I grew up”. I’ll have you know, that these were only the ones I could remember. According to my mother, I tended to change my mind weekly. But hey, apparently my kindergarten self got it pretty spot on, considering I ended up going to college to receive my BFA in musical theatre. AND, I do happily admit to eating a lot of pizza in my free time. So there it is folks, actress and semi-professional pizza taster. Boom. Now, I do have a confession to make. I unfortunately did not become a princess (yet?), but hey, I’m sure my kindergarten self is just as pleased for me nailing 2 out of 3?
…sorry. I have a point to eventually reach before this blog becomes the new never ending story, I swear…
I have been thinking about this crazy career journey of mine more and more recently. Our whole lives, doesn’t it seem that we are not only encouraged but expected to pretty much decide on one path to really set our hearts to? At least, thats kind of the impression I have been under. Luckily, my parents have always patiently awaited for me to figure it and do what I love. Now if you couldn’t tell, I had a pretty hard time with this! Not because I had a hard time figuring out something to love doing for the rest of my life, but because of the exact opposite. I had a hard time deciding on just one passion to pursue!
Now don’t let me lead you to the wrong impression, I absolutely love the path I am on in terms of being a so called “starving actress”. I have been working pretty consistently with a few different theatre companies since I graduated college and am now approaching a whole new audition season for what is hoped to be some new doors about to open! However, in being a recent member of the “real world” club that you apparently enter the second you graduate, I have almost immediately come to the realization that you don’t have to title yourself to just one thing. Though my main concentration is focused towards acting, I also hold 5 other jobs, 4 of which I started all on my own on a whim! Maybe I don’t exactly know what I am doing. And maybe, some things won’t work out! Don’t we all have those little ideas in the back of our mind, of things we really would love to do but just don’t know if it will work out? Why should we limit ourselves?
I have really come to terms with being comfortable and excited to not know what I’m getting myself into. This book of life we all have in front of us is a series of trial and error. In this chapter of my life, I can honestly say this is the first time I am really turning to a blank page. I’m officially narrating the rest of this book. I always kind of knew what was coming next, school primarily. But now that I am graduated, this is brand new territory. It’s ok to not know what you’re doing. I have officially given up trying to plan the future. Taking everything day by day, working hard, doing what you love, and trying new things is the perfect path to be on.
Life changes, and so do we. It’s a beautiful privilege to confidently let the chapters unfold. Let go and let live!
And there it is, some classic Stevie inspiration for you. I hope you liked my poorly constructed story. Goodbye for now my lovely readers, I applaud you if you made it all the way to the end. (This was kind of a long one… I can only hope you finished your glass of wine by now… )
Until next time…
XOXO – Stevie